Don't know what you've got til its Gone.

The famous quote, is so true. 

Because you don't know what you already had until it's gone. 

You see it in front of you, you do nothing with it until it walks away. 

Then you start to feel the hurt, the pain, that not what it caused you, but what you caused yourself. 

Don't blame the person for walking out on you. Because it was you that pushed them away. 

Don't blame it on any one else, if you were the one putting them aside. 

Life isn't fair, but you only have one life to live. 

Live Laugh Love and also Learn. 

Hold on to what you already got. 

If it's the best thing you've had, DON'T LET GO.

Words from the Infamous Evol.

I Miss You.

So my father has been gone for, 3 Days now. It feels like it's been forever. 

I miss him, seriously. It's not home without him. 

So today, I had a hard time thinking about what I want to do after high school. 

Because the things I want to do is, not co-operating with my family, 

I don't know what I should do. 

I want to become a photographer, but at the same time, they say it won't support me. 

I want to become an interior designer, but I can't draw for nothing.

Right now, I have an inspiration for art. 

But, I don't think I can keep up with anything.

I have an urge to make a shirt, but I need a design, 

Ackk! Haha, A shirt with one of my characters but I can't put them on paper. 

Ha, My mind is creative but my hands aren't co-operating! 

I hate this, 

I'll just go and figure out my character...

ALOHA, 

RODLYNCHRAINA.

Judgmental Comments,

Have you ever, judged someone before knowing them? 

I have, I honestly didn't know what I was talking about.  

I'm not shame to admit it. And here's for the people who do this.. 

Get to know the person before you start judging because someone

truly proved me wrong about my thoughts. 

So I met a new friend this past week, and I used to think he was the 

type of guy like those immature people at our school. The ones who 

did drugs because they want to, the ones who skip school and think it's cool, 

the ones who don't give a f*ck what people think when they do stupid sh*t. 

I was wrong. He's chill, he's cool like that. He's so chill that I actually told him

things some of my other close people don't even know. Amazing how I can make 

close friends fast, pretty cool at the same time. But anyway back to the subject,,

JUDGING.  People are like cream puffs, on the outside, before you eat it, 

it's plain, sprinkled with powdered sugar, (in this case the sugar is a little bit of personality), 

but when you bite into it, it changes your mind. Because one bite is like BAM! 

It's tasty, its something you want to eat more often. It's like one of the best things you've ever tried. 

I compare a person to a cream puff because it's true. When you first meet a person, 

you may think that their just plain, boring. BUT when you get to know them on the right 

level, they aren't so, boring, their personality grows on you.  They're either the people you

love to hang/chill with (The BEST cream puff you've ever had) OR They're the type 

of people that you just can't stand the types that you don't even want to listen to 

(in this case, the sour, spoiled, disgusting cream puff you never want to eat again)

Ha, yup this is my metaphor for judging people, and guess what, don't judge the wrong way

karma does go around, someone might judge you one day, and they'll be thinking about 

you the wrong way. 

That's all I had to say today,

Aloha, 

RODLYNCHRAINA.

Actions Speak Louder then Words

So far, I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. 

All these things happening now, I just can't see what's in my future anymore. 

I try to visualize it, but I can't because now I see that everything can change in a second. 

I'm giving up on hope, on faith, on everything. I prayed as much as I could. 

Look what's happening. Everything she said she was going to do is happening. 

What is love? If love isn't in this marriage, it makes me wonder, what real Love is like. 

It's a question I ask myself everyday. Love? Makes people jealous, makes people lie?

Oh God, help me understand the meaning and terms of this word "Love"

Everyone uses it, I just want to know the definition, and the actions.

I don't want to use it.. It's been abused by so many people, so many ways. 

How can you use LOVE in a good way, how do you use LOVE the right way?

I want to meet a couple who's truly in love. I want to see someone show me LOVE.

Actions are way better then just words. So don't tell me, I need you to show me. 

Priority > ANYTHING.

You were the one who told me
"This is the type of man you should marry,
The one that tells you he loves you everyday, out of the blue."
If this is the way you really feel about him, then why all this drama?
If this is what you dreamed of, shouldn't it be worth it, to follow him?
If this is what you think of him, Why would you ruin it by bringing the past up?

My inspiration of Love is slowly disappearing, it's just not the fact that all these fights are happening it's the fact that you're turning into someone I hate,
The type of people who bring up the past,
It was years ago. Let it go, I understand if it was a year ago, but no,
It was 25 Years ago. It's definitely behind, it's most def that he's committed to you.
Don't ruin it now, you seriously can't be that tired of him.

He made me cry today, telling me that I won't miss him
To the fact that he's out of my life, 90% of the time.
I cried infront of him, because he's saying it like I don't care.
He isn't home to see me crying, he isn't there at church to see me cry my eyes out.
I miss him, he doesn't know most of me just because he's at work.
"You don't think I care? I do. I just hide it from you."
I feel like saying that to him, seriously.
He's leaving this Saturday, YES, I will miss him, definitely.
What makes it worst is that I, Me, is the only one dropping him off at the Airport,
I'm the last one he'll see out of his whole family right before he leaves.
That's so sad! Am I the only one that cares?! The only one that will cry when he's
taking his steps into the airport?

My stress is so high -_- It aint even funny,
Personal Transition Plan, Algebra 2, Spanish! Ugh all stress me at school.
Now all this, at home. I don't need it seriously, the actions that I react to it, it's literally killing me.


Quotes of the week,
-Never make someone your priority, when to them, you're only an option.
-Settle for the less since you left the best.
-I'm not here to play the game, I'm not here to win your heart.
I'm here to prove you wrong, everyone isn't the same. © evol
-Don't give up, when your everything becomes a nothing..
because it shows that, that person shouldn't have been an everything to you in the first place.© evol

Friendships > Relationships

I could honestly say I finally understand everything when people say,
Friendships are permanent and Relationships are temporary.

Like seriously. So I had this talk with one of my closest friends,
since Highschool started, I told her I'll NEVER do her wrong.
Cause fuck, There was so many people that walked out of my life,
especially the close ones, like wtf?! Some people was so close like,
I didn't care what I said, I was never shame, I was open to them
everything. But I told her, I don't want to do that, thats why I've been
an honest friend, and someone who tries to help others out you know?

I don't want to be those other assholes that walk out of your life because
there's just a new boy in their life, or a new girl. You know? I mean, okay
I might walk out, like you won't see me and shit, but fuck I KEEP IN TOUCH!
You know what I'm saying like, I don't just walk out and never talk to you in like MONTHS
I check up and see hows everything is going. And plus I'm the type of person that you can just come up to me crying and I'll be the one
worrying about whats wrong and try to cheer you up like, drive you to go get ice cream
or take you to waipio park and just try to make you smile or something
NO, I'm not a fake person. I may do stupid shit but I learn from it. I may be a bitch when other people who don't know me talk shit about me.
I may be a bitch when people who USED to know me talk shit, but in
reality they don't know me anymore.

It's just useless how people throw things away like that.
There are friendships out there that is worth more then matrial things,
and they have the nerve to just throw it away.
There are friendships out there that you won't believe like, the types of interests your in,
the way people just be there no matter what, people who just finish your sentences without knowing it.
I mean, all those years in bestfriend relationships is WAY worth being in then being hurt by someone you thought you loved.

Just think about the concequinces you will be in when the one you love walks out, and theres no one there to walk in and cheer you up because YOU'RE THE ONE who pushed them out in the first place.

Keep it up, one day you'll end up with no friends at all, just the fake ones.

Checker, Chess & Poker

So today, I woke up around 11 o'clock because I came home at 5:58 AM.
And this is what we did.

Yesterday LJ & Kevin decided that we're watching movies at my house,
So we watched the Enforcer, then Kells called, since we had alot of time
before she came back to Ewa. We began to watch Nick & Norahs Infinite Playlist.
That movie was good! LOL. So, Kells came about 3/4 through the movie.
When the movie was finish, we left to Waipahu, so since we saw traffic going into
Ewa we decided to just stay at Manang Janice's house til the traffic went down.

At about 10:30 pm we left, dropped off LJ and got home around 11:00pm
Waited til my mother went to sleep, I should've left, but I didn't
Rod came out of his room and went outside, so I couldn't leave,
So then I just waited, around 11:40-12:00 I finally got out! Lmao.

Left, called up Karl, was supposed to meet up with him at Times
But the boys where waiting for meet up, so instead met up with Karen
at Times and followed her to her house. Then, waited for Layton, Sheldon and Angie.
They left gentry so just met up at Juniors house.
Junior, Richard, Angie, Layton, Jikka, Sheldon was there,
Craig dropped off Mailyn, waited for Craig to come back.
I guess everyone was lazy so decided to watch The Eye.
During the movie Justin came and scared us,
& They thought I fell asleep and was snoring! ROFL.

After the Movie, HUNGRY!
LOL. So went to Mikies.
Jikka, Craig, & Justin decided to go home,
So after we ate, went to PearlCity WalMart to chill
Got kicked out for Loitering,
Went back to WestLoch Estates, and chilled on the side of the
Road til 5:30 AM, then Richard wanted to go home, so
I dropped off, Sheldon, Karen, Angie and Layton.

& Yeah that was my Night/Morning, (:
Got home around 6:00AM, My mother woke up
right after I got into the house, so I was SAFE!
Hahaa,

Plans for April 4, 2009?
Tonight/Tomorrow Morning,
Maybe, Fast And Furious 4,
with Karl & Karen at Wards
(LAST MOVIE!) Then after? Chill?
I don't know yet, still planning.

But anyway, Right now, I'm uploading new Photos on my
NEW MySpace (http://www.myspace.com/464439940)
VISIT, ADD, COMMENT, MESSAGE!
&& New Photos on my Flickr! I haven't updated it in a year!
(http://www.flickr.com/photos/evolphotography/)
VISIT & COMMENT!!

Okay then PEACEZZZZY!

Future & Art

I wish you could support me.
I wish you could just hold me up and say,
"You can do it, put your mind to it."
I wish you could tell me,
"Do what you LOVE and LOVE what you do"

But I can't get everything I want in life.
I feel like you don't support me and
What I want to do in life.
I just feel like you're there just telling me
Lies, after lies..
In your eyes, when I talk about it..
It's like "You're not going to make it in life."
In your eyes, it's like,
"Give up you're not good enough"

That's all I see,
I never see the part where you say
"Wow you're going to make it to the top"
or "Someone's going to love this"

You know what I mean,
All I'm asking is for you're support.
This is what I love, this is my passion.
I may not show it, everyday, but I try to.
It may not come out like I want it to,
But I make it work, I work around the damages.

Photography & Design.
My Passion for art is just naturally there.
I didn't decide that I want to be come a lawyer,
then all of a sudden want to become a photographer.
It just came to me, I love art, and the stories behind
the picture, behind the words.
It defines things in many different ways.

Art will always be LOVE.
Because it cooperates with everyone.
You can trust art, and art can trust you.
You can vent to art, because it can also show you pain.

Art is just a blank canvas awaiting to be painted.
No matter if it's Paint, Music, Photos, or just normal Poems.
Art will always be love,
Art will always understand you.