Checker, Chess & Poker

So today, I woke up around 11 o'clock because I came home at 5:58 AM.
And this is what we did.

Yesterday LJ & Kevin decided that we're watching movies at my house,
So we watched the Enforcer, then Kells called, since we had alot of time
before she came back to Ewa. We began to watch Nick & Norahs Infinite Playlist.
That movie was good! LOL. So, Kells came about 3/4 through the movie.
When the movie was finish, we left to Waipahu, so since we saw traffic going into
Ewa we decided to just stay at Manang Janice's house til the traffic went down.

At about 10:30 pm we left, dropped off LJ and got home around 11:00pm
Waited til my mother went to sleep, I should've left, but I didn't
Rod came out of his room and went outside, so I couldn't leave,
So then I just waited, around 11:40-12:00 I finally got out! Lmao.

Left, called up Karl, was supposed to meet up with him at Times
But the boys where waiting for meet up, so instead met up with Karen
at Times and followed her to her house. Then, waited for Layton, Sheldon and Angie.
They left gentry so just met up at Juniors house.
Junior, Richard, Angie, Layton, Jikka, Sheldon was there,
Craig dropped off Mailyn, waited for Craig to come back.
I guess everyone was lazy so decided to watch The Eye.
During the movie Justin came and scared us,
& They thought I fell asleep and was snoring! ROFL.

After the Movie, HUNGRY!
LOL. So went to Mikies.
Jikka, Craig, & Justin decided to go home,
So after we ate, went to PearlCity WalMart to chill
Got kicked out for Loitering,
Went back to WestLoch Estates, and chilled on the side of the
Road til 5:30 AM, then Richard wanted to go home, so
I dropped off, Sheldon, Karen, Angie and Layton.

& Yeah that was my Night/Morning, (:
Got home around 6:00AM, My mother woke up
right after I got into the house, so I was SAFE!
Hahaa,

Plans for April 4, 2009?
Tonight/Tomorrow Morning,
Maybe, Fast And Furious 4,
with Karl & Karen at Wards
(LAST MOVIE!) Then after? Chill?
I don't know yet, still planning.

But anyway, Right now, I'm uploading new Photos on my
NEW MySpace (http://www.myspace.com/464439940)
VISIT, ADD, COMMENT, MESSAGE!
&& New Photos on my Flickr! I haven't updated it in a year!
(http://www.flickr.com/photos/evolphotography/)
VISIT & COMMENT!!

Okay then PEACEZZZZY!

Future & Art

I wish you could support me.
I wish you could just hold me up and say,
"You can do it, put your mind to it."
I wish you could tell me,
"Do what you LOVE and LOVE what you do"

But I can't get everything I want in life.
I feel like you don't support me and
What I want to do in life.
I just feel like you're there just telling me
Lies, after lies..
In your eyes, when I talk about it..
It's like "You're not going to make it in life."
In your eyes, it's like,
"Give up you're not good enough"

That's all I see,
I never see the part where you say
"Wow you're going to make it to the top"
or "Someone's going to love this"

You know what I mean,
All I'm asking is for you're support.
This is what I love, this is my passion.
I may not show it, everyday, but I try to.
It may not come out like I want it to,
But I make it work, I work around the damages.

Photography & Design.
My Passion for art is just naturally there.
I didn't decide that I want to be come a lawyer,
then all of a sudden want to become a photographer.
It just came to me, I love art, and the stories behind
the picture, behind the words.
It defines things in many different ways.

Art will always be LOVE.
Because it cooperates with everyone.
You can trust art, and art can trust you.
You can vent to art, because it can also show you pain.

Art is just a blank canvas awaiting to be painted.
No matter if it's Paint, Music, Photos, or just normal Poems.
Art will always be love,
Art will always understand you.

Made My Day

Jonah Kim & I.

Rod: haha, i like yoshi (:
Kim: mario baby!
Rod: ew, when did you turn gay? lol
Kim: Gay? i'm married to you right? Lol

Haaha, well anyway.

Stressed, Depressed, EVERYTHING.

I hate you so bad, But I love you too much!
What am I doing to myself? Hurting myself every single day
Just for you! and you don't notice how much I miss you.
I'm so mad at myself, I just can't handle all this pain anymore.
I can't do this! I'm breaking down, for no reason sometimes.
Like, I'd be in a happy postion, and BAM! You pop up in my head.

You pop up, when I pass your house when I pick up my friends.
You pop up, when I talk about Evo's with Kim.
You pop up, when I look at the person that sits in my passenger seat.
You pop up, when I walk into my bedroom door.

You don't see how much I still hurt!
Yeah, 15% of my love and feelings are still there,
But, UGH! I still hurt like how it was when we first seperated.
This isn't fair, but one day, that one day I'm waiting for you
To switch positions, when I'm the one who's happy and YOU,
You are the one who's hurting. When you're the one in your room
Crying your eyes out because you're the one whos hurting.

I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TIL THAT FUCKEN DAY. >:(

Extra Credit
+++STOP FUCKEN USING MY FCKN CARD!

Productive Day.

So today was sort of productive.
Woke up around 9:30ish, and just started listening to music.
Told my mother I had a meeting for an upcoming photoshoot.
Around 11:00ish, Decided to call up my boy luis. Cause
Cullenboy asked me if I was going to the gay prom tonight
from 9:00-11:00pm. Lol. So yeah, around 12:00ish,
started to wash my car, Karen texts me cause Karl didn't
answer so I was finishing with washing my car, because I
needed time to look on google maps for Sacred Hearts Academy.
about 1:30ish left my house, went to Starbucks because I was
craving for SM2PRUBT.. Headed toward Kunia to pick up Karl.
Then headed for Diamond Head Distributors.
Got a call from Karen, she thought we were lost but we were just picking things up.
Started heading toward S.H.A., Got on the freeway and traffic was whack!.
Then talked with Karl for a bit, someone was Reminiscing playing the song
"Is there A Place"
Then finally got to S.H.A., Karl hitting on lower classment but he didn't know rofl.
Headed to the gas station, ): my SM2PRUBT fell off my car. Then headed to
UH yogurt land but so fail -_- NO PARKING! so then decided to go to pearlcity one.
CHANGE OF PLANS. lol, went to kuru kuru sushi
THEN headed to Yogurtland. That point Karl was late for work.

Yogurtland - So we went in, asked for sample cups. Took big fat samples, started to
decide if we wanted to buy a bowl, said no, grabbed more fat samples,
then walked out.

Haha, only cool people do that (:
Then! Finally headed to Kapolei to drop off Karl,
then yehh, Went home after we dropped him off.
That was my day! A little productive I must say.

She Was Mine,

I want to broadcast! Haha doesn't this look fun lol. He was broadcastin while singing, but yeah I LIKE THIS SONG! lol, Time look limewire it (: See what I do late at night when I don't want to sleep :D
"in my eyes, she was mine"


she was mine - Broadcast your self LIVE

Word from The Experienced

Note: This is for the ones, who expirenced having a significant other who just doesn't care anymore, or never notices how much you've done for him/her.

Everything you need to make a relationship work is everything YOU should believe in.
Trust, honesty, equality.
Like I've said before in my blog about two days ago.
If you promise to stay with your significant other for a long time.
BE THAT SOLDIER - To fight that war, show other people who cares and loves him/her.

Don't play that stupid game, others play.
It isn't fun when you're the one that's being played.
Ask those around you, that used to play around.
Everything they've done, came back around.

Some people don't notice how much their significant other is doing for them.
And if you're one of those people, or if you just think you notice it,
Please, try your best to do the same, because some people give their all to make you happy.

There's people that
-Give their other EVERYTHING they wanted.
-Give more then they recieve.
-Try their best to heal your heart.
-Try to anything to see you smile.

And for those who think negative,
STOP!, it's not making your relationship any better,
Just stop, be happy, be lucky, that you still have your significant other right by your side.
If I could, I would yell and all of you that don't notice what you have infront of your face.
There is SO MANY PEOPLE who would die to have their love on their side again.
PLEASE, notice what your partner is doing for you,
You don't want to hurt them, and leave them thinking that all you think about is the negative.
Look to the future look at what you already have, look at the positive.
That's the best you can do. Notice.
There's those little fights you guys get into, HANG ON, losing someone you love, isn't worth it.
Losing someone that you really care about over something stupid is just DUMB.

Take every chance you got because, you know what, later on, it may never come by.
Give your relationship your all because there's so many regrets that are waiting to happen.
Don't wait until the last minute to say your sorrys because it'll be worst.
Some say, get hurt now, or get hurt later it'll be the same?
No, WRONG, later hurts more then ever, if you need to say sorry, or you need to make up for something,
Do it as soon as possible. because later, you'll break harder then your partner. Trust me.

Listening to the experience is most likely the smartest thing you can ever do.
They've experienced and have you? No.
If you don't want to do what they say, just follow, and if everything comes true, then LISTEN.

Well that's all I have to say for now,
Hit me up on twitter, http://twitter.com/rodlynchraina 24/7
Goodnight world.. Word from the infamous evol,

Optimistic, Pestimistic, FCK IT

There are two types of people in the world.
No, make that 3 different people.
ONE: Optimistic, the ones that look at the Positives.
TWO: Pestimistic, the ones that look at the Negatives.
THREE: The ones who really don't care.

And in my words, Optimistic people, look toward their future, they keep their heads up high in the clouds, forgets what other people say about them. They keep their life sane, and above the influence.

Pestimistic people, see today, and no further. They look toward the negative, hardly ever the positives. They're probably under the influence because they just dont care about whats happening tomorrow.

The ones who don't really care? are the types of people who just say FCK IT.

So who would you be influenced with?
-LOVEisEVOL

April Fools!

First blog of april.
I hope this month won't be as hard on me as March.
So plans for this month,
-Federal tax return! (April 3)
-Back to School (April 6)
-Kevin-James' 17th birhday (April 16)
-Chris Brown's 18th birthday (April 16)
-Kelly Ann's 18th birthday (April 23)
That's all for now? I think.

So I've been updating twitter with BLOG IDEAS.
And I needa write them (:
I'll go now, and post them up when I get them down,
LOVEisEVOL

Between You And I

I've been listening to this song,
over and over again,
It's about moving forward,
He still misses her, but he sees nothing good in waiting,
"But the lovers that leave us will always hold their place."

"/ I need to find a way, you know?
A way to let go, a way to give up, a way to keep myself together.
This lockdown situation is just, making me go insane.
This love situation is just, making me miss you more.

I can't just let go, a years work of love.
I can't just let go all the things we've been together.
But now? Thinking about you, feels like we've never been together.
I bet, you let go days before we seperated.
I bet, you didn't love me as much as you said you did.

You let me go, you stepped away from me,
you walked out of the way to keep me safe.
you dropped me.
You just, I dont know.

I didn't mean to, yell at you.
I didn't mean to do anything to hurt you.
I didn't want us apart for good.
I didn't want us to be this way.
I didn't want us to end our forever ever this way.

I wish you were that soldier,
that fought the war to win my heart.
I wish you were that soldier,
that never gave up, that understood.
I wish you were that soldier,
that did anything to keep me in your arms.

But me?
I wasn't good enough for your hard work.
I wasn't good enough for your love.
I was just THERE.

A girl, standing in front of you,
holding my heart out, holding myself out,
to you, telling you to hurt me all you can.
Hurt me til I bleed with regret.
Hurt me til I find out reasons why I shouldn't love you.

Ugh, I love you for the wrong reasons.
I love you too much, too much to let you leave my heart.
I love you too much to see you with someone else.
I love you too much to see you give up everything.

You don't see it.
You don't see, that I am that soldier,
that fights the war til I win your heart.
I am that soldier that understood you.
I am that one that defined you.

Without me, you wouldn't be how you are today.
Without me, you wouldn't have learned all the things you learned.
Just without me, you would never see, how much someone really loved you.

I'm waiting for that day,
that day of regret.
That simple time, where you actually see,
something in me.
Until you see that that oppurtunity you're leading today,
will never love you like I did, like I still do.
That day, when you see what I was trying to tell you the whole time.

I was grateful, you taught me how to love.
You taught me how to trust,
but you also taught me, how to be careful.
Careful how other peoples actions could hurt other peoples feelings.
You taught me how, to hate.

Fortune Cookies

Hello world,

It's 10:20 AM and I just woke up.
My blogs will offically be about ME,
I did mistakes before, & talk $hit,
but karma came around., -_- I deserved it.

But anyway, It'll be advice for me & for the people that need it.
I got a fortune the other day when I was eating with Karen Steez & Richard F. Baby.
It said receive advice as much as giving,
something like that I lost it -_-

I noticed, I do have to recieve the advice people give me because
I noticed, I don't listen, I don't even listen to my own advice.
Ugh, I'm so hard head. Honestly.

I was looking up fortune cookies and some say things that are quite true
something like.. "Our First & Last Love is, Self-Love"
I should make a goal for myself,
Every piece of advice, I'll try my best to listen to it.
Every fortune I recieve I shal l take pictures of it and post it on my collection (:

Happy Jonah "EH" Kim Day!

It's his day today, yup.
He's turning 17 today,
WHOOHOO! one more year then he's legal haha.

I gotta make him cupcakes today then draw on it!
lol Gotta make his day yennoo.

Equality

is everything in a relationship.
GIVE & RECEIVE.
50/50, half and half.

Don't do that 80/20,
receive and sometimes give.
That's not how it works.

EQUALITY is one of the things you need.
TRUST is a definite.
Some people just don't see it.
Stop playing these games,
FEELINGS is something you should be serious about.
Don't fuck around with people's feelings.
It's not going to make anything better in the future.

Stop lying to each other and be real.
Stop and make a decision, you can't have both.
You can't have one on the side.
Keep the promises you make,
follow your word, make your relationships stronger then it already is.

Fights are something relationships are supposed to go through.
Don't hope that your relationship won't have any fights,
it'll never work that way, you have those fights to see how
much you can handle, those fights make you see how much
your significant other loves you and how much they would
fight for your love.

Don't blame the fights, blame the fighter.
If they give up too easily, in their eyes,
you're not worth the fight.
But if they keep fighting until they see and they understand,
that ONE, will stick around, and will cope with all the fights you go through.
That ONE will be the one to be there every single day, minute, second you need them.
That one will be the one to understand you. That one will be the one that will always
TRY to make everything alright when you get into fights.

I hope the people who are in relationships,
and if you are reading this,
take it into consideration,
listen to what I have to say.
My experience hurt my heart, to the point I just want to give up.
But I'm trying my best to get back up on my feet,
I thought I had someone, someone that will catch me in his arms,
and hold me until I'm up and standing with him.

But he didn't wait til that happened,
when he caught me, he didn't get a good grip of me,
and let me slip right through his arms..

Boys, hold your girls tight in your arms.
Girls, do your man right, they deserve it, they fight the war to keep you.

Reply, "that it,"

to Sarah's blog..
Isolation hurts, but sometimes that's the only way,
the only way to stay away, the only way for you to be happy.

We really do, hope one day, you BOTH realize what you both lost.
you may be happy, we hope one day you regret things you have done to us.
this is from both of us, to both of you..

Stop doing the people around you,
WRONG.
It'll come back around,

Your mom.

March 30, 2009 (10:21 AM) -
Damn yesterday I had a major break down -_-
Aint my fault, my feelings are sorta still there.
You can ask everyone around me.
Ugh! I'm only human, I can have my feelings when it comes back right?!

Whatever, moving forward.
I'm here at home, sitting on the bed, doing nothing.
Well, I was chatting with Chris Padilla, but my internet
disconnected. At least he has something to do.

Damn, hopefully this second week of spring break
Mmmmm, Kelly-Ann is sleeping over this week WHOHOO!
Well, only until her father comes back.

(10:19 PM) - So Boring! What did I do today?
Picked up LJ, went to campbell industrial,
went to Kapolei Hale, Cruised at deanes house for a while,
Dropped off LJ to work, then came back home.
:) that was my day how was yours?

Suite 22

From now on, I'm going to try Blog everyday.
I hate holding these feelings in,

Dear anonymous,
I fucken hate you.
You let me fall straight through your arms.
I thought you wanted to prove us girls wrong?
I thought you never wanted to be like my ex?
I thought you were different,

Next time, I'm not going to follow this bullshit.
This time, I'm building my guard up stronger and better.
This time, only the one who really works at it,
will break it down.
This time the only one who wants it really bad,
will SHOW me they're different, not in words,
but in actions.

Haw, here I am world, show me what you got in store for me.