So it's like One in the morning, and I can't sleep I have school tomorrow. Ha, I did hookah today, didn't really help either, but it's not going to kill me. But anyway on with whatever I need to get off my mind.
This past few weeks it's been hard for me to move on but I am trying my best. Well, I think I'm interested into someone but you know me, if they have their eye on someone, I'm definitely not going to try, and especially if they have a girlfriend already, I'm not going to bother, I won't "Pussy" block no one. I'm not that type of girl. Unlike some people, that LOVE to pussy/cock block their friends to get what they want. So selfish I say. So I talked to Cullen, and damn that boy can say some deep words when it comes to advice. And, he's right, and so true. So yeah, I will listen to what he says because right now in my head, it's just nasty how everything is happening. But oh well. I've also talked to Luis' friend, ALOT of people have so many different advice, and I'll tell you this, they're all true. Ha, I'll leave it as it is, because look at me now? I'm getting stronger by the day because I'm not weakening because all this is happening to me. I want to become a stronger person because I don't want anyone to look at me because all the bad decisions I've been doing, so I'll stop the bad things, and move on to the greater. I can find someone that'll treat me better, that's what everyone tells me. Not that he didn't treat me well, it's just yeah. I loved the way I was being treated, but when I needed him the most he just walked out and left. I need someone that'll take me in when I need them the most because I don't want to be left out and not cared for but oh well.. everything is said and done. I will confess, I did make a mistake leaving him, but it was his choice to keep it the way it is now. I wish him a better life without me, since I've been making it such a fuss..
Well anyway back to the present life now. So on Saturday, February 28, 2009, I went to Pearls with Kell Bellz and I actually got bored and did my makeup lol, used flashies for once. When we got there, I swear, people got eye problems. lol. I don't care, I looked the way I do on my default ^_^ Hello! Back on track.. So at 3 Me and Kellz was on our way to KAC's photoshoot, and mmm,, NOT MU FAULT PEARL CITY THERE WAS TRAFFIC, but anyway, went to the SECRET place, and took photos. waited a little longer, til some more people arrived. I got spanked by Ryan's Automatic car -_- SO SHAME!, but I did spank, Richard and Greg's car, Buwhwhhhahaha. Richard was ashamed. I DRIFTED! not purposly though, lol. I did though. But AGAIN, get back on track.. This is guy was starring from a-far, OMG... Sexy (: lol, Kelly Bellz, you need to introduce me because meng! Boy just got a JOB, he drives a SEXY ass CIVIC, and omg, SENIOR. Lol, I'm sorry, perfect. Nah I don't know. Lol. Just introduce and I'll take it step by step (; lol. Like what Kelly said "You always wanted someone you could...Race with" Lol. I'm the only girl on campus that is down for race with my car, cause why. IM MUTHAFCKN PROUD. lol. I shall be.Well anyway, get back on track again..The boy has a job, a car, and is a senior.. AHHH! but the name, has REPEATED in my life once again. Damn, it's not my fault I fall for the "J"s lol. I think, or maybe it's just a quincidence. Who knows.. But guess what I'm getting tired (: So I'mma go cause I need sleep for the morning, Picking the boys + Kelly Bellz up. Goodnight bloggers, and myspacers if you're reading this. Bye.
This past few weeks it's been hard for me to move on but I am trying my best. Well, I think I'm interested into someone but you know me, if they have their eye on someone, I'm definitely not going to try, and especially if they have a girlfriend already, I'm not going to bother, I won't "Pussy" block no one. I'm not that type of girl. Unlike some people, that LOVE to pussy/cock block their friends to get what they want. So selfish I say. So I talked to Cullen, and damn that boy can say some deep words when it comes to advice. And, he's right, and so true. So yeah, I will listen to what he says because right now in my head, it's just nasty how everything is happening. But oh well. I've also talked to Luis' friend, ALOT of people have so many different advice, and I'll tell you this, they're all true. Ha, I'll leave it as it is, because look at me now? I'm getting stronger by the day because I'm not weakening because all this is happening to me. I want to become a stronger person because I don't want anyone to look at me because all the bad decisions I've been doing, so I'll stop the bad things, and move on to the greater. I can find someone that'll treat me better, that's what everyone tells me. Not that he didn't treat me well, it's just yeah. I loved the way I was being treated, but when I needed him the most he just walked out and left. I need someone that'll take me in when I need them the most because I don't want to be left out and not cared for but oh well.. everything is said and done. I will confess, I did make a mistake leaving him, but it was his choice to keep it the way it is now. I wish him a better life without me, since I've been making it such a fuss..
Well anyway back to the present life now. So on Saturday, February 28, 2009, I went to Pearls with Kell Bellz and I actually got bored and did my makeup lol, used flashies for once. When we got there, I swear, people got eye problems. lol. I don't care, I looked the way I do on my default ^_^ Hello! Back on track.. So at 3 Me and Kellz was on our way to KAC's photoshoot, and mmm,, NOT MU FAULT PEARL CITY THERE WAS TRAFFIC, but anyway, went to the SECRET place, and took photos. waited a little longer, til some more people arrived. I got spanked by Ryan's Automatic car -_- SO SHAME!, but I did spank, Richard and Greg's car, Buwhwhhhahaha. Richard was ashamed. I DRIFTED! not purposly though, lol. I did though. But AGAIN, get back on track.. This is guy was starring from a-far, OMG... Sexy (: lol, Kelly Bellz, you need to introduce me because meng! Boy just got a JOB, he drives a SEXY ass CIVIC, and omg, SENIOR. Lol, I'm sorry, perfect. Nah I don't know. Lol. Just introduce and I'll take it step by step (; lol. Like what Kelly said "You always wanted someone you could...Race with" Lol. I'm the only girl on campus that is down for race with my car, cause why. IM MUTHAFCKN PROUD. lol. I shall be.Well anyway, get back on track again..The boy has a job, a car, and is a senior.. AHHH! but the name, has REPEATED in my life once again. Damn, it's not my fault I fall for the "J"s lol. I think, or maybe it's just a quincidence. Who knows.. But guess what I'm getting tired (: So I'mma go cause I need sleep for the morning, Picking the boys + Kelly Bellz up. Goodnight bloggers, and myspacers if you're reading this. Bye.
